Sunday, May 07, 2006
ambiguity
Music failed me. Colours failed me. Now even words are turning their backs against me. That leaves the random images that i can never quite attach an emotion to, evoking a sense of whateverish because as everyone knows very well, i am mighty lazy to feel. Emotions suck my energy dry.
I get a piece of random image flashing in my head (almost) every night before i shut off. Most often, these are images of characters i swear i have never seen before. But they're vivid and sometimes i'm compelled to jump out of my bed, get my tools and paint them out. Thing is, i can't paint. I can only paint walls and i figure it wouldn't sound normal if i paint my walls at one in the morning. I'm already less-than-normal as it is... i don't need to justify that.
So the images remain as mental images, phantasmagories. I guess that's what makes them special, they're all mine. Eh, that sounds selfish. Okay next time i'm going to bed, i will bring my camera along with me and start snapping the first image formed in my mind. Sounds great, but how i'm going to make that possible is another point altogether.
For now, my bed beckons! Rest well, everyone.
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fara // 01:11
ambiguity
Music failed me. Colours failed me. Now even words are turning their backs against me. That leaves the random images that i can never quite attach an emotion to, evoking a sense of whateverish because as everyone knows very well, i am mighty lazy to feel. Emotions suck my energy dry.
I get a piece of random image flashing in my head (almost) every night before i shut off. Most often, these are images of characters i swear i have never seen before. But they're vivid and sometimes i'm compelled to jump out of my bed, get my tools and paint them out. Thing is, i can't paint. I can only paint walls and i figure it wouldn't sound normal if i paint my walls at one in the morning. I'm already less-than-normal as it is... i don't need to justify that.
So the images remain as mental images, phantasmagories. I guess that's what makes them special, they're all mine. Eh, that sounds selfish. Okay next time i'm going to bed, i will bring my camera along with me and start snapping the first image formed in my mind. Sounds great, but how i'm going to make that possible is another point altogether.
For now, my bed beckons! Rest well, everyone.
fara // 01:11
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